ok. walked to the library, no longer despairing, still only at 818 words
but. outside is nice today
small things to do that make your mind feel clearer
- close all your internet tabs except the one you’re using
- delete all your text messages
- delete negative people from social networks
- throw some things away. just throw them away
- tidy your desk. make a blank surface
- drink 3 glasses of water
- open the curtains
- wash your face and brush your teeth
im properly scared now. i’ve messaged my friend with a flat asking if she’ll be home this afternoon and can i crash but i think if he doesnt reply in another ten minutes im gonna have to go to the library even though i dont know if itll help just to get out of here
i dont know how my brain works and im scared about it
i have shit to do this evening. and tomorrow. and the day after. and ufckfufjdklxcbvxn im scared
WHERE are they getting this stuff !!
it has come to the point of me setting five minute timers and then writing down what i do with every five minutes.
this is some hardcore nanowrimo shit right here i cant believe i have to turn this in.
(640 words and a slightly more detailed if not any less shit plan)
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broke 500 words that’s a little over 25% done this can happen this must happen.
must. (iuwohgasdjkl agsfibkvxjksn i hate everything)
i’ve just broken one page
this is the worst prose ive even written with the intent of someone reading it
im pretty sure its incoherent
it must be done. it must be continued.
god do i not want to insert citiations into this nonsense
OK 278 words down. I can do this i can do this i can do this i can turn this in only one day late
petitions for asexuals to be allowed to say “i totally aced that” whenever they misread a potentially sexualised situation
and then to just majestically sweep out of the room in a billowing cloud of purple smoke but that is optional
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